we must bring
our own light
to the

nobody is going
to do it
for us.

— Bukowski

the art of practice

Our house practice and way of life has been established over the cycles. refugi operates to its own rhythm and pace. The heartbeat of the mountain is steady, true and on fire. It is built upon simple, tried and tested things that work.

The early practices formed during The Hermit Years, as we like to call them, are the foundations of this church, this temple, this heart inside a house inside a mountain. They form the basis of the patiently knitted together practice that takes place.

There are three main simple practices, summarised in the line: The Blunt and Loving Sweeper of Time and Life.

PRACTICE ONE: A liturgy of The Hours

Oh Virginia, Oh Mrs Dalloway, Oh The Hours - if only we had listened.

Across every single religion and human faith there is an honouring of the passing of time. The Liturgy of the Hours, The Sounding of the Bell, The Call to Prayer. The passing of day into night and season upon season is a fundamental part of our human experience. The cycles to which we human animals are part of. And we have always worshipped it. Always looked to time.

Checking our watches and punching our time clocks. Paying by the hour.

When I came here I put down my understanding of time. In order to learn something new. There are no clocks that work in my home. I work to calendars few might recognise. I pay attention to the moon and the stars. The seasons and the rhythm of my own body. I have trained myself over the years to know the sound of my own bell. To be a Daykeeper.

A reminder to stay with it. Stay present, stay in practice, stay. Just stay.

Within the structure of a daily rhythm, I sit for a moment and gently notice the rhythm of breath. I invite you to do so too. Notice our bodies, our surroundings, what we see, hear, smell. The stopping itself is prayer. An invitation to rest in restorative silence. To carrying ourselves wherever we go.


On Time. 

If you come to The Mountain, we invite you to abandon time in order to reclaim it as your own.

It is an opportunity for your heartbeat to match the heartbeat of the universe.

Time. It's all about time. And Time is an Art; Time is Art.


(or The Way of the Bald Monk who says fuck a lot)

Occasionally, from time to time, us humans can get a little to over-attached to our thinking minds and our emotional rivers. We become a swirling storm of suffering and confusion. There is a practice for this. Do not come to me with your drama or your suffering until you have spent an hour sweeping in silence. I will do the same. If either of us forget, we are there to remind each other and pass on the broom. It is the single most effective practice there is apart from breathing and maybe doing the washing up. Sweep.

PRACTICE THREE: Down to Earth like the Ammas, White not Red

In the early Christian faith, many House Churches were led by women. They were spiritual guides; teachers and leaders of their monastic communities. They were simple and straightforward. Blunt and savvy. They name what needs to be named.

And so there is this, the final of the three practices, stated bluntly and wisely so that all may hear:

The Desert Fathers and Mothers practiced white martyrdom as opposed to red martyrdom. Sacrificing one’s life is not what happens here. We stay alive.


Desert Mothers or Ammas, Spiritual Mothers, were women who offered wise counsel to others and who through that counsel became lovers of souls. - Mary C. Earle

The true contemplative is not one who prepares his mind for a particular message that he wants or expects to hear, but is one who remains empty because he knows that he can never expect to anticipate the words that will transform his darkness into light. He does not even anticipate a special kind of transformation. He does not demand light instead of darkness. He waits on the Word of God in silence, and, when he is answered it is not so much by a word that bursts into his silence. It is by his silence itself, suddenly, inexplicably revealing itself to him as a word of great power, full of the voice of God.
Thomas Merton, writer, theologian and mystic